Binge eating

Lisa Jane's post on http://alittlelisa.blogspot.com/ about binge eating really resonated with me. I have memories from around 11 years old of eating entire packets of chocolate biscuits and hiding the wrappers so my mum wouldn't know. I can't remember actually eating the biscuits, it would just be 'one more' and then I'd guzzle them down.

It never occurred to me that there was a reason other than greed behind my bingeing. As I got older, I was able to buy what I wanted but usually either ate in the car (secretly and without my OH knowing) or in the evenings when he wasn't around. I could eat an entire pack of pringles and still could. I'd even eat icing sugar or sugar directly from the packet, or ice cream from the freezer.

And always, as Lisa described I'd have a horrible sense of shame and disgust at myself. When I first went to uni I started to vomit but realised that bulimia wouldn't solve my problems and stopped doing that quite quickly.

Now I'd say that I overeat but don't binge very often. However, this weekend we bought hundreds and thousands (sugar threads) and other nice things that have always been the sort of food that I've binged on. I've eaten some of them but tried to stay present and put them on a plate. I really don't want to go down that route.