Holiday

I'm off on holiday for just over a week (back on 10th) to France. Doubt I'll have time or access to the computer so Au revoir mes amies!

Back on track

I'm struggling a bit at the moment. I either seem to be avoiding eating because I don't fancy eating or snacking when I'm not really hungry. It's silly as I'd sort of got to a point where it was all coming together.I've tried snacking on fruit rather than the chocolate box at work (which is my main downfall at the moment) and it's working a bit.Anyway, I think I need to get back on track.

I'm going on holiday to France next week and am going to work really hard at eating intuitively as I'll have the time to choose when and what i want to eat. In the meantime I'm going to re-read Beyond Chocolate and re-invigorate my interest.

I think I'm struggling because there are different expectations when you're pregnant- when else can you legitimately be putting on 1lb a week and be being healthy? Or know that you will have a big belly and this is a cause for celebration not embarrassment.

I don't like healthcare professionals asking my weight or having to think about it and find it a little off-putting. It's odd knowing that I can (sort of) eat ice cream to get more calcium and feel less guilty about the fat in it. And I've had to give up any ideas of losing weight or 'controlling' it as this might hurt the baby.

To some extent you just HAVE to accept your body and how it's growing.I'm glad I'd done the work on accepting my body (or at least no longer hating it). It would be even harder if I was at war with it. But I'm not 100% comfortable with all the changes, it's a bit like going through puberty again, with bits growing and new sensations and you don't know quite what will happen next!

Anyway I'll post how I get on and get back on track

alive and kicking

Woohoo, 'Sprout' is alive and kicking. I've just come back from my scan. The good news is that all is well, however, my due date has changed to the 20th December, so the baby has been nicknamed Sprout as it's bound to come in the middle of my xmas dinner! I'm 12 weeks and 4 days not 14 weeks but I can live with that knowing that all is okay.

As you can see, Sprout is waving!

Highs and lows

I was supposed to have my 1st proper midwife appt this evening and Dh and I both got home early to wait for her (due after 6pm). By 9pm there was still no sign of her and I was pretty annoyed as we'd both been waiting since 5.30pm and I was really looking forward to Dh getting to hear the hb and a confirmation that all is okay. Anyway, it turned out that the 2 messages that had been left for a Samantha should have been for me instead. She'd got my name wrong.

She's rearranged the appt for friday evening instead when DH is away but never mind, at least it'll all be sorted for monday. Her colleague was off sick and she had to cover a parentcraft class.

IE wise, bizarrely, I'm currently off food except for home made fruit smoothies which I'm eating ridiculous quantities of. But woohoo, I've got to my 2nd trimester, roll the end of morning sickness!

I'm tired so I'm going to bed now, it's been a heavy day.